way to do that. I don’t know about you, but I have trouble remembering I did yesterday, let
alone what happened two weeks, or two months, or two years ago! We are human. We are
forgetful. But when you journal, you can look back and remember what He has done. This
builds our faith and helps us in our hard places.
Some of you may have heard me tell this story before, but it’s worth repeating. Four years ago I
was laying in an ultrasound room because they had seen something suspicious on my
mammogram and were looking further into it. It was dark, I was alone, I was crying, and scared.
As I laid there, what came to mind were the words, “It is God who arms me with strength and
keeps my way secure.” I kept saying it to myself over and over, laying there. It calmed me
down a bit, and reassured me of God’s presence with me. I didn’t know where it came from or
how I knew those words. I was pretty sure it was a Bible verse, but I didn’t know what verse or
why I knew it. But they were words of comfort and peace to me in that hard moment. Later I
looked them up, and found them in Psalm 18, verse 32. “It is God who arms me with strength
and keeps my way secure.” So I was diagnosed with cancer two days later, and walked through
the hardest summer of my life, but Jesus was by my side, and I journaled a LOT during that
season. I even have sent a digital version of that journal to people who have walked through
cancer or other difficult circumstances. But that verse continued to run through my mind over
and over through every scary procedure or at night when I would lay in bed with “what ifs” trying
to derail me. “It is God who arms me with strength and keeps my way secure.” That verse, and
lots of others, helped me through the hard journey.
After treatment was over, and things calmed down, I was looking through some old journals, as I
do from time to time (and we’ll talk more about that later). And I saw my verse written there, “It
is God who arms me with strength and keeps my way secure.” I had read it that morning, it
stuck out to me, so I had written it down in my journal, and beside it I wrote, “I want to remember
this when I go through hard things.” A simple prayer, written on a random page in a journal,
THREE YEARS BEFORE cancer. And the Lord answered that prayer, laying in an ultrasound
room, bringing that verse back to mind. Three years before, He was preparing and equipping
me to walk the hardest journey He’d had me on, and because of my journal, I could look back
and see that. I could remember His faithfulness.
According to the psalmist in Psalm 111:2, (written at the top of your paper,) those who “delight”
in God’s works “ponder” them.
To delight in something requires stopping and noticing it; attending to it, treasuring it—as you
would a photograph of your young child. Indeed, a good description of what you do with that
photograph in your hand is to ponder it.
Although “ponder” can sound passive or abstract to us, the original Hebrew word is active,
eager, and brimming with life. It means to seek out with care, to search after, to inquire, to
examine, to interrogate. (“Study” is how it is rendered in Ezra 7:10: “For Ezra had devoted
himself to the study and observance of the Law of the Lord, and to teaching its decrees and
laws in Israel.”)
That’s what biblical remembering looks like. Actively, earnestly, deliberately reflecting on God
and thinking carefully about what he’s said and done. Rehearsing, recalling, and relishing his
story and our role in it. Thanking him, praising him for rescuing us, and for giving us the gifts
and opportunities we’ve had for success and service. Acknowledging who we are and whose we
are.